Really....Why?!?!

Hate how this man can hurt me more than anyone else! Hate how I bashed him like that as if I have no manners! Hate to say things that are so mean and yet so true because of his action! What to do with someone who's attention is not ours anymore? What to do with someone who used to be at my side all the time? What happen to the special man I grow up with? What happen to the family that's so damn precious to me?!!

Sana...

Sana nong umpisa pa lang...hindi na ako lumaki sa isang masayang pamilya. Sana sa umpisa pa lang broken-family na ang pinanggalingan ko. Sana sa umpisa pa lang may kabit na ang ama ko. Sana sa umpisa pa lang, ganito na ang set-up namin....nang hindi ako nasasaktan ng ganito. Sobrang sakit lang kasi talaga! :'(

What the?!

So troubled with fam probs lately.. so pained and hurt by someone's wind of change... so distracted and so lost... so stressed...

-That's why a BIG Thank You dearest friends for inviting me into a concert! My first ever! and I'm super glad! :D #6cyclemind ROCKS!!!
-it's when I met someone..good looking yet so arrogant! So pissed off by his words and actions...but hey, I can't deny this... (I'm a bit attracted) But oh! It's all done! We're not gonna meet again! and as if I'll have a chance!
-CRIMINOLOGY. Now, really?! What's with this course??! Been connected with two men who's taking up this course in a week. One is Mr. Arrogant and one is Mr...?? Weird! Don't know what to call him! It's just that we met in a funny situation! And I don't know...I just felt that somehow..we made a connection! <3

Yah yah I know.. I'm just being so helpless romantic once again. But I don't think anyone can blame me, I guess it's about time!


-gen

Friday After my Birthday!

Nakita ko siya ulit! Haha :D Akala ko kung napano, may nasagap kasi aqng news… pero ok naman pla eh! Nakakangisi pa! hehe
And… nagiging close aq kay T. B., natutuwa aq sa mga nalalaman ko! haha :D nafi-feel q xa! I’m glad, magkasundo kmi!
…c T.C. nman knina, utas aq sa pagtawa eh…kinakanthan nya kasi yong bata, eh yong bata asar na asar na! :D kyut tignan! :D
Tapos bonding ang sunod… Finally nakita ko na rin ung legendary KUBO haha :D pretty! Saya nila! At grabeh c T. A. a a! Lakas mang-asar! Lakas ng trip! Sayang-saya eh! Pero before dat, bad trip naman..
Volleyball…nila. Hehe hindi nman aq marunong maglaro kasi.. Watch na lang aq! First time maka-bond sila! Masaya! :D
And oh, first time din pala naming magka-usap ng mejo matagal ni T.E. At mkausap rin c T.S., natawa aq nong sinabi nyang nahihiya sya sa pagbati ko sa knya ng “Good Morning” wid yuko pa ng ulo..hehe
Lastly, aun…. bonding kmi ulit, akala q after ng training, ndi ko na sya mkkabond, :D Yihee… :D tuwa nman aq eh! La lng, namiss ko un ah! haha :D
Saya! :D Sana…maka-survive ako! Sana maging masaya din ako gaya nila para makatagal ako dito sa napasok ko! haha :D

My First Birthday

May mga bagay na kahit iyakan mo pa, kahit gaano kasakit…HIndi pa rin nagbabago. May mga hiling na kailanman, hindi pwedeng pagbigyan. May mga bagay na nasa sa’yo na dati, ang wala na ngayon… May mga pangyayaring first time…

Ngayon ko lang narealize…First time ko nga pla to. First Birthday ko without the very reason of my existence.. :( Sobrang ibang-iba! Lalo na kanina paggising ko. First time kong lagnatin sa Birthday ko! Ang sama ng pakiramdam ko. :( Taz, xmpre…ndi nman kami ganun kaluwag kaya wala tlga akong handa… Ok lang naman skin eh! Ok na! Gumaling na lang ako at kailangan ko ng pumasok bukas. Pero I know, deep in my heart, malungkot ako. Kasi..bday ko. Bday ko pero walang masayang nangyayari sa araw ko. :( The clock strikes 3. Aun! Tinanggap ko ng bibilangin ko na lang ang oras para lumipas ang araw na ito..pero VIOLA! SURPRISE! Dumating cna mameh at mam!
:’( Sympre iyak ako! Akala ko kasi tlga nasa SM Lipa cla. Taz un pla, pinagluto nila aq ng favorite kong bihon at gelatin. T_T Sobrang touch aq sa mameh ko nong niyakap nya ako. :’( Meh…d m lng tlga alam kung gano mo ako napasaya! Sobrang thank you!
….Aizt! Sa sakit, sa emote, ndi q namalayan na bday ko pla…. HIndi na ako nakakantahan ng bday song. Well, ganun yta tlga pag tumatanda na…ndi na kelangan un..pero baliktad ako. Mas lalo kong nammiss ang ganun. Den…namimiss kita ‘Ma! Sobrang miss na miss kita! Masama pa rin pakiramdam ko ‘Ma, feeling ko kapag nahiga ako lalagnatin na ulit ako. Pero gusto ko ng pumasok bukas. Aizt!
‘Ma! Nammiss ko ung pag-aalaga mo skn pag may skit ako. :’( Namimiss ko ung pag-aalala mo kay papa kapag nalalasing sya… Namimiss ko ung bati at hug mo skin tuwing 9:45am ng “Happy Birthday ‘Nak!” ‘Ma! Namimiss na kita! Miss na miss na kita! Dapat nandito ka! :’(
Hindi talaga kayang ibigay ng mundo ang wish ko! Iyon ay ang ibalik ka! ‘Ma, gusto kita uling makasama…. iyon ang wish ko… iyon ang birthday wish ko… :’(

Dream On

Last night, I was eating while listening to my Audio Book, The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes and while watching Pilipanas Got Talent, (yah I know, ...I learned to get used at multitasking haha), then suddenly the TV vibrated because my phone is ringing. Someone's calling me...guess who it was??

Yap! (nodded) -its him. Waa! I don't know what to do? Shall I take the call? What shall I say? Things like those... But I answered the call nevertheless. And? Well, of course, non of us knows what to say..haha

I told him I'm not used to it anymore (him calling me)..he just said "ganun?" Then, I asked him how he was? He said he's okay. We chat for a bit, but I am always lost for words at him, much more now after what happened to us. Aizt... I don't know. He's not asking for us to make it up, so I guess he doesn't have any plan. I don't know. Maybe it's really just a friend call. :( But of course, I am sad. Cause the feeling is still there...always there... :(

I don't know when's the right time for us? or is there any time??? I don't know. This year is not over though...let's see what'll happen. For now.... I am.... a bit sad?? haha...

If I could ask him a gift for my graduation, it will be a WHOLE DAY spend with him. Wherever, whenever... (As if it will happen! Come on Gen...Dream On)

:(
im missing my Mr. Smiley

-gen

10 Things I Hate About You

Watched a movie alone entitled 10 Things I Hate About You. The leading guy swept me off my feet as I watched the story unfold. I like the character of Heath Ledger here, he's oozing of sex appeal hehe :p I love their story (Julia & Heath), it reminds me of my own-made novels.

I was so touched with the scene where Julia read her poem for Heath. The poem was so lovely, I don't know if she really made it, or it was already part of the whole movie thing. Anyway, here's that unforgettable poem...

I hate the way you talk to me,

And the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick,
It even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh,
Even worse when you make me cry

I hate it when you're not around,
And the fact that you didn't call

But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
Not even close…

Not even a little bit…
Not even at all.

 I even found a video on Youtube that made a song out of that poem. How lovely! Listen...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U45SRwacMgU

Oh! What a romantic day...for a hopeless romantic like me haha :D


 -gen

Hooray for my First Time!

Yay! :D My first time!

 Finally had an account here! (while busy doing my own school papers haha)

ok so what do I have now? hmmm (thinking)

My best and I just finished watching a chick flick entitled "Made of Honor"! ^^

Ok Doki! ^^

well, I guess that made it for my first post!
^^
-gen