Wednesday, May 27, 2015

“Time waits for no one.”

It was just a quotation from a scene in the animated movie “The Girl Who Leapt Through Time”. It was written in Japanese characters in a board with its English translation. As the leading girl stares at the quotation, I stare too and contemplate on its meaning. Time waits for no one. True! It never did. From the simplest wish to avoid being late up to that grandest desire of freezing the last moment I have with my mother. It never waits for me.

And as the leading character gains that ability to travel back in time, I also fancy of the things that will happen when I can have the power too. I also dream of the things I will change and I will keep. How I love to have that control!

But watching as the story unfolds; another famous quote is reiterated in my mind. “For every action there is a corresponding reaction.” Watching the leading character watched someone who has to pay terribly every time for her “time-leap” makes me one with her guilt. Of course, you don’t want messing with other’s life. But what if, it’s the only payment for your longing? You don’t know them anyway. And they don’t know that it’s you. You, who are altering life events just for your own sake. Now, that sounds selfish!

Yes.

The horror in the leading character’s face when her best friend has to die in her place is just appalling.
Do you really need to time-leap? Do you really need to change what has already been destined? Do you have to cheat?

“Time waits for no one.”

As simple as the line is. I guess, we just have to do things right and treat time as the most valuable commodity we ever have.


-gen

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Glenda

One starry starry night in July… ♫♪♪♫


Pero hindi naman…makulimlim nga. Tig-bagyo!
July 16. Kakatapos lang magbirthday ni Chris Tiu.
Sinong mag-aakalang mabibiktima kami ng bagyo?
Sinong mag-aakalang matutuklapan kami ng bubong?
Ganun pala yon!
Habang binabayo ng malakas na hangin at ulan ang nabuksang parte ng bahay nyo…
at binabaliktad nitong pilit ang bubong nyo…
Wala kang magawa
Nagdarasal ka na lang ng “Tama na. Tama na please.”
Yung takot mo nung inakyat ng papa mo ang bubong nyo para ayusin habang patuloy pa rin sa pagpapamalas ng kasungitan ang panahon…
Yung kaba mo na baka may masamang mangyari…
Wag naman sana. Panteleserye lang yon eh.
Isabay pa ang kaguluhan ng mga tao sa paligid.
Lumiwanag na pala!
Tumataas ang ilog!
Pataas ng pataas.
At kailangan na raw naming lumikas
Hindi. Ayoko.
Ano? Tatambak sa evacuation area? Tapos mavi-video?
Ayoko nga!
Ayoko ring pumila para lang sa relief goods!
Ayoko!
Sabihin na nating maarte at mapagmataas pero ayoko talaga.
Pang TV lang yon!
Ayokong pagpyestahan ng lahat ang buhay ko!
Ayokong kinaaawaan ako.

Hindi ko alam kung malakas pa ako sa taas pero siguro napadaan lang talaga ang sama ng panahong iyon.
Hindi naman kami naabot ng ilog.
Pero basa ang mga gamit. Hindi kami binaha. Sumalok kami ng tubig ulan!
Ayun!
Apat na araw na absent.
Brownout.
Ganito pala.
Ang bonding namin ng pinsan ko ay kainaman!
Laba sa umaga.
Nagbabasa ng pocketbook sa gabi sa tulong ng naghihingalong kandila.
Nagkukwentuhan sa gabi. Nagtatakutan.
Para kaming na-shutdown sa syudad.
Pero masaya pa rin sa kabila ng lahat.

Ngayon…
Mabuti na lang may bagong bubong na kami.
Masarap na sa pakiramdam iyong malakas ang ulan pero kampante kayong nakahiga at hindi nag-aalinlangan.

Kung bakit ko ito naisulat?
Hindi ko rin alam.



Reflection:
Lahat ng tao may first time.
Ang akala mong napapanood mo lang sa tv noon pwede rin palang mangyari sayo.
Kaya… ingat-ingat. 









*Photo credit goes to their rightful owners.




-gen

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Really....Why?!?!

Hate how this man can hurt me more than anyone else! Hate how I bashed him like that as if I have no manners! Hate to say things that are so mean and yet so true because of his action! What to do with someone who's attention is not ours anymore? What to do with someone who used to be at my side all the time? What happen to the special man I grow up with? What happen to the family that's so damn precious to me?!!

Sana...

Sana nong umpisa pa lang...hindi na ako lumaki sa isang masayang pamilya. Sana sa umpisa pa lang broken-family na ang pinanggalingan ko. Sana sa umpisa pa lang may kabit na ang ama ko. Sana sa umpisa pa lang, ganito na ang set-up namin....nang hindi ako nasasaktan ng ganito. Sobrang sakit lang kasi talaga! :'(

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

What the?!

So troubled with fam probs lately.. so pained and hurt by someone's wind of change... so distracted and so lost... so stressed...

-That's why a BIG Thank You dearest friends for inviting me into a concert! My first ever! and I'm super glad! :D #6cyclemind ROCKS!!!
-it's when I met someone..good looking yet so arrogant! So pissed off by his words and actions...but hey, I can't deny this... (I'm a bit attracted) But oh! It's all done! We're not gonna meet again! and as if I'll have a chance!
-CRIMINOLOGY. Now, really?! What's with this course??! Been connected with two men who's taking up this course in a week. One is Mr. Arrogant and one is Mr...?? Weird! Don't know what to call him! It's just that we met in a funny situation! And I don't know...I just felt that somehow..we made a connection! <3

Yah yah I know.. I'm just being so helpless romantic once again. But I don't think anyone can blame me, I guess it's about time!


-gen

Friday, May 20, 2011

Friday After my Birthday!

Nakita ko siya ulit! Haha :D Akala ko kung napano, may nasagap kasi aqng news… pero ok naman pla eh! Nakakangisi pa! hehe
And… nagiging close aq kay T. B., natutuwa aq sa mga nalalaman ko! haha :D nafi-feel q xa! I’m glad, magkasundo kmi!
…c T.C. nman knina, utas aq sa pagtawa eh…kinakanthan nya kasi yong bata, eh yong bata asar na asar na! :D kyut tignan! :D
Tapos bonding ang sunod… Finally nakita ko na rin ung legendary KUBO haha :D pretty! Saya nila! At grabeh c T. A. a a! Lakas mang-asar! Lakas ng trip! Sayang-saya eh! Pero before dat, bad trip naman..
Volleyball…nila. Hehe hindi nman aq marunong maglaro kasi.. Watch na lang aq! First time maka-bond sila! Masaya! :D
And oh, first time din pala naming magka-usap ng mejo matagal ni T.E. At mkausap rin c T.S., natawa aq nong sinabi nyang nahihiya sya sa pagbati ko sa knya ng “Good Morning” wid yuko pa ng ulo..hehe
Lastly, aun…. bonding kmi ulit, akala q after ng training, ndi ko na sya mkkabond, :D Yihee… :D tuwa nman aq eh! La lng, namiss ko un ah! haha :D
Saya! :D Sana…maka-survive ako! Sana maging masaya din ako gaya nila para makatagal ako dito sa napasok ko! haha :D

My First Birthday

May mga bagay na kahit iyakan mo pa, kahit gaano kasakit…HIndi pa rin nagbabago. May mga hiling na kailanman, hindi pwedeng pagbigyan. May mga bagay na nasa sa’yo na dati, ang wala na ngayon… May mga pangyayaring first time…
Ngayon ko lang narealize…First time ko nga pla to. First Birthday ko without the very reason of my existence.. :( Sobrang ibang-iba! Lalo na kanina paggising ko. First time kong lagnatin sa Birthday ko! Ang sama ng pakiramdam ko. :( Taz, xmpre…ndi nman kami ganun kaluwag kaya wala tlga akong handa… Ok lang naman skin eh! Ok na! Gumaling na lang ako at kailangan ko ng pumasok bukas. Pero I know, deep in my heart, malungkot ako. Kasi..bday ko. Bday ko pero walang masayang nangyayari sa araw ko. :( The clock strikes 3. Aun! Tinanggap ko ng bibilangin ko na lang ang oras para lumipas ang araw na ito..pero VIOLA! SURPRISE! Dumating cna mameh at mam!
:’( Sympre iyak ako! Akala ko kasi tlga nasa SM Lipa cla. Taz un pla, pinagluto nila aq ng favorite kong bihon at gelatin. T_T Sobrang touch aq sa mameh ko nong niyakap nya ako. :’( Meh…d m lng tlga alam kung gano mo ako napasaya! Sobrang thank you!
….Aizt! Sa sakit, sa emote, ndi q namalayan na bday ko pla…. HIndi na ako nakakantahan ng bday song. Well, ganun yta tlga pag tumatanda na…ndi na kelangan un..pero baliktad ako. Mas lalo kong nammiss ang ganun. Den…namimiss kita ‘Ma! Sobrang miss na miss kita! Masama pa rin pakiramdam ko ‘Ma, feeling ko kapag nahiga ako lalagnatin na ulit ako. Pero gusto ko ng pumasok bukas. Aizt!
‘Ma! Nammiss ko ung pag-aalaga mo skn pag may skit ako. :’( Namimiss ko ung pag-aalala mo kay papa kapag nalalasing sya… Namimiss ko ung bati at hug mo skin tuwing 9:45am ng “Happy Birthday ‘Nak!” ‘Ma! Namimiss na kita! Miss na miss na kita! Dapat nandito ka! :’(
Hindi talaga kayang ibigay ng mundo ang wish ko! Iyon ay ang ibalik ka! ‘Ma, gusto kita uling makasama…. iyon ang wish ko… iyon ang birthday wish ko… :’(